Hello
I had filmed a video on Monday.
Kinda to vent out my emotions,
of everything that happened on Monday.
But as I was editing it,
I just didn't want to upload the whole thing.
Um, there was a lot of crying.
(crying) I'm very, very deeply hurt.
But I just didn't want to upload it.
I can give a quick re-cap, I'm feeling better enough
where I don't think I'm going to cry.
Monday in early afternoon
I received some pretty bad news.
From someone who means the world to me.
But as it is Friday now
I'm hopeful in the sense of
things will work out
where they need to be.
They'll be what they need to be.
I know I won't be abandoned by that person so
I'm trying to stay calm with that.
The next thing is I found out that one of my friends
our mutual friend, she has cystic fibrosis.
She was fortunate enough to get two
double lung transplants in her life.
The second one, she's had for quite some time but
her body is rejecting it.
and she made a blog post like a month ago
saying she felt ready to die.
And the doctors gave her like till summer of next year but
I found out from a friend that
she is currently home under the care of Hospice.
And I know she'll be passing very soon so
that also came on Monday.
And was a lot to deal with.
And finally one of the other biggest blows I got on Monday
was from my doctor.
I've been going through so many antibiotics for
a while now.
If you follow me on Twitter you know I keep
becoming allergic to them.
And uh last Friday I was apparently taking penicillin
and I became allergic to it.
I had called Ismael and he was like
"just stop taking it and email your doctor."
I did and Monday she answered me and
and apparently now I'm antibiotic resistant.
Which means now any kind of infection I get
she told me, I need to go to the hospital.
Because you're at a higher risk of dying.
And so that was a really big thing to deal with.
So I'm getting by, um this week has been very hard on me.
But it's getting better.
Mornings and nights are the hardest times of the day.
But I'm getting by.
Monday should be looking up.
And yeah, just take it one step at a time.
I just wanna check in because I
I've been trying to be active on social media but
my heart's just not in it right now.
Okay, there's your update.
(exhales)
yeah.
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