God sees the blueprint of our life.
We choose what we want but God direct us to the right one,
we need to give Him a room to guide us.
I wanted to study abroad since in middle school.
But I didn't have enough money,
so I tried to get a scholarship.
I took a test but I failed so...
I felt disappointed.
I applied for bachelor's degree in Bandung,
But I struggled each semester,
My parents and I tried our best to pay for each semester.
I worked at a consultant company after graduating,
My best friend also worked at a consultant company.
We both worked hard,
and worked overtime too.
I thought about having master's degree abroad...
hoping for a scholarship from the company.
On the 3rd year, my best friend got a scholarship and went to Singapore.
But my company didn't have the program.
Why didn't God give it to me?
I was disappointed with my company, my boss...
...and myself because it felt like I didn't deserve it.
So I let it go.
I took master degree in Education at Jakarta
to afford it myself until I graduate.
Ka Prodi asked me...
whether I wanted to be a candidate for the best students...
from the master degree of my university.
I gave it a try,
thank God if I got it
but it was fine if I didn't.
I shared this at DATE (cell group),
Something went wrong with my thesis,
should I have another semester...
or ask for unpaid leave?
My birthday was in October and I usually made a resolution.
My resolution didn't come true these previous years,
I got tired of asking,
so I decided not to ask this year.
Someone asked me at DATE,
what my wish was.
I went home and suddenly heard...
a voice asking me about my birthday wish.
Then I thought...
"God,
I want to be the best student."
Then I felt peace and hope...
It gave me the courage to ask for things I had let go before.
A friend from DATE whom I wasn't so close with,
asked me to meet her,
read the draft,
she said it was good and only needed a final touch.
My boss permitted me to leave for two weeks,
the process for collecting resources also went well.
I got a call several weeks after,
I got to be to best student and...
for 32 batches none from Education ever made it to be the best student,
students from other department usually got better GPA and thesis.
I got my graduation book and saw...
the name and GPA of other department...
only different 0.01 point,
and there were 2 people.
It was God's grace.
Faith includes God's provision but we need to respond positively,
if we don't do anything,
we won't achieve it,
because there are God's part and our part,
God did the part that I couldn't do.
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