Hey, guys.
What's happening?
I'm here on the river, the Columbia River.
Right next to the shoreline.
It's an amazing, beautiful place.
I actually just came here a few days ago with The Detox Dudes retreat and it was so special.
I'm feeling kind of sad right now actually.
And one of the things that I want to do and start doing with my business and myself is
just being radically authentic all the time.
I had thing in my brain that I would to be only film videos when I'm feeling good,
only talk about you know how amazing I feel and all the good stuff and all the knowledge
I have.
And it didn't feel good for me because every time, I felt tired or every time I felt sad,
I was like I basically had to stop you know producing and filming.
And it's just not the truest authentic expression of myself.
And it's so stressful to have to like pretend to be something you know.
So I really just want to be authentic all the time.
I want to talk about whatever's present for me and even if I'm sad and tired and
lonely, I just want to be able to talk about that stuff too.
So, yeah, so that's where I'm at right now.
Feeling sad because I just spent the entire month of July around people.
I had a 17-day meditation retreat.
The first half of it was with 13 people, the second half of it was like with 52 other people
and it was just an amazing, life changing meditation retreat.
Ten hours a day of meditation all focused on awakening the third eye, living from a
different place aside from ordinary mental consciousness and really connecting to your
intuition and your spirit.
And I had a day or two days of rest after that.
I was totally cracked open like feeling the inner, vulnerable, open child.
That inner core.
And then I had to jump right into The Detox Dudes retreat where 10 people from – me
and my business partner and eight other guys from around the world came into Portland,
Oregon and talked about detox and health and longevity and business and food and everything.
We talked about everything.
No subject was off limits and it was just spectacular.
We actually came to this very place I'm at right now.
This place is almost like you're on a couple people said its like being on the TV show
Lost.
It's like this river and then this desolate, dry area and it's amazing.
It's beautiful.
So I spent the whole month with people diving deep into the collective consciousness.
Just going deep not only at the meditation, at both retreats, seeing other people's
core, experiencing other people's heart, their truest selves and then also my own.
My own.
Just seeing my inner child and seeing my pain and yeah.
And that whole month of being around people, I just realized that community is the ultimate
form of detox.
You know like I need to orchestrate my life so I am around really likeminded people all
the time instead of just going to retreats for it.
I want to create a life where I'm around that all the time and of course, we need to
balance it with our solo time and that's what happened to me today.
I had like 26 days of being around people every day, all day and then today, I woke
up with this void of like 'Holy shit, I'm by myself.'
And you know, what do you do you know?
I feel this pain, this sadness, this loneliness that you know that we all experience and the
trick is to just be with it.
So I planned a day to really come to the beach here and spend some time with my emotions
and myself and right before I was about to leave, my friend texted me asking if I wanted
to hang out and I knew that was a test.
I knew I needed a solo day.
All of the momentum was in the other direction of being social but I just knew I needed a
day to myself.
So I came out here and feeling the sadness, feeling the inner child, my heart is cracked
open after being around all those amazing people.
You know I can't believe that some people just come and go.
Like some people I may never see again you know and it's crazy to think how much of
a part somebody could have in your life even if it's just for a week or a few days and
then all of a sudden, it's just like they go on their way and I go on mine.
It's just…
There's something that's so sad about that.
I don't know why it's so sad for me but it just is.
So yeah like I said the mood after the meditation retreat, I just realized that I have to be
my truest authentic self all the time.
That's what will be most fun, most fruitful, and most true.
And instead of trying to be this superhero, this Detox Dudes guy who's the detox dude
who is fully healed and doesn't experience pain anymore.
You know that's such bullshit.
I don't really know that there's ever a point that people get to a place where they
don't experience pain.
I think that's part of life.
And it's your response to pain that means all the difference.
Pain is always there.
So yeah the theme of July was just 'Community is the ultimate form of healing' you know.
For my meditation retreat, I was surrounded around people who nourish my spirit, my soul
on such a deep level, something, the healer part of myself.
It was so nourishing to be around those people for the healer part of myself and for my inner
child and some part of my spirit was just so attracted to it.
And then for the meditation retreat – I mean for The Detox Dudes retreat, there was
something about being around people who understood healing and detoxification and suppositories,
enemas, colonics and clean eating and fasting and these people have been through such an
intense healing journey and such amazing wisdom and such beautiful heart with everybody.
And one guy at the retreat, his first day there, he was having a bit of a panic attack
because he was really sensitive to mold and we're in Portland here and a lot of houses
have mold and he also just got done with like a 20-hour flight or even longer with his layover.
And you know, we were trying to tell him 'Hey, man.
You know you'll be alright.
We're here to support you.
We're here to support you.'
And then after like the third day, he came up to me and he was like 'Wow.
I feel amazing.
I feel like we're protected by this amazing shield from all the darkness when we're
together' and I was like 'Exactly.
That's exactly what's happening.'
You come together with other members of your tribe and likeminded folks who really see
the world in a similar fashion that you do.
It's like it's like amazing, protective layer and just like an amazing experience.
So, yeah, community is the ultimate form of healing, the ultimate form of detox.
I knew it from the beginning when my business partner Robert came over to Portland like
six months, five months ago.
We met for the first time and there was a couple other people hanging out with us and
we were both just shitting out parasites all week without taking any supplements and we
were trying to figure it out like what is going on?
And we realized that like when you're around your tribe, your vibration just elevates and
healing takes place, miracles happen and I knew so I knew there was something to the
community and the tribe and there's always something that I deep down was grasping for
and hoping for.
But after this month, seeing how and what that month did to me, I'm just so certain
that community is the ultimate form of healing.
So alrighty guys.
Thanks for listening and more to come.
Peace.
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