Waching daily Mar 7 2018

no nothing is needed beyond noticing it in the same way that you notice a sense

perception and look on it to feel it

otherwise the fear becomes a reaction and you withdraw and run back into

identification with thinking the familiar place

it feels so familiar so then the fear pushes you when you touch this place

consciousness sometimes it happens that fear arises and then you touch it again

and if you don't know that this is a very natural reaction then the fear you

identify with the fear you become the fearful entity that then withdraws again

into the normal state of B so to notice the fear is there brings about a freedom

so that the fear is not totally possessing you you're not totally

identified with the movement of fear you can see that fear in your energy field

and don't have to do anything you allow that and then you can look again at

something when the same thing that brought the fear there is a gentleness

when you allow the fear there's a gentleness around it because so you're

using the other portal now with the fear which is allowing it to be then the fear

itself is turned into a portal first it seems to prevent you from getting there

but if you then apply the portal of allowing it what is to be it is then the

fear itself becomes a portal again so first there was the portal of perception

clear perception which brought about fear or listening to the silence which

brought about fear when you notice the fear and allow it you the allowing is

best expressed in a gesture that I would describe as this when you almost they

hold it in a spaciousness which is a also one could say that gesture and that

particular portal very much it connected with the female principle of embracing

that's why Dex you see sometimes with Mary statues the arms like that that is

the female principle there's enormous power in that holding embracing

receptivity and there's a gentleness there so when you allow something

including fear there is that an inner holding it within this larger

spaciousness and rook it might even help a little while to actually hold your

arms like that and then because you can almost feel the space around it and then

whatever it is that you allow to be will turn into the portal the worst things

will turn into a portal but the worse they get the deeper the yes would have

to be and deeper the allowing so see how everything that looks like an obstacle

in your life an obstacle to enlightenment and

obstacle to whatever can easily be turned into an opening simply through

non resistance and then every situation even if it looks from a conventional

mental viewpoint even if it looks dreadful very bad indeed if you allow

that which looks dreadful and very bad indeed

the strange thing is that every situation it's not just on the inner

level that the shift happens that the portal opens the situation itself is

turned from good to bad it's the transmutation of good to bad

it's not there's a famous story unfortunately I don't remember the

details of it they're different versions when a poor farmer a horse comes to him

a wild horse and all the people in the village come to him and say aren't you

lucky you're so lucky that this horse you have a horse now and the farmer says

well maybe maybe so and then the next day the horse

I think leaves him again and they all come all you've lost the horse that's

you're so unlucky first you had it just maybe and then the horse comes back

the next step is five other horses and they come back in some maybe then the

summer some rights on the wild horse and then he's thrown off and breaks his leg

and the villagers come and say oh poor man you know he cannot help you with the

harvest and the fast perhaps maybe the next day that the army comes to

constitute seek conscripts for the next war and the son can't go by them and

they all get killed of course so the village has come and say aren't you

lucky you kept your son because he has a broken leg okay every event he doesn't

resist anything and every seemingly bad event transient is good again there are

quite a few people in this room who have experienced bad events that they would

never have chosen if some reason do you want this to happen to you you would

just say no but it happened and at some point

surrender happened if not complete substantial surrender happened and then

you see that which you never wanted was actually the best possible thing to

happen for you and it's a strange realization that whatever happens to you

when you align yourself with it will turn out to be the best possible thing

for you the universe is not mad only you are mad

it's nothing personal and of course your madness is part of the universe - it's a

little game so to see that whatever happens through the yes turns around

it's not only that you become free internally and the dimension opens up

that is beyond the form that this moment takes even on the level of form a shift

happens and it turns around and that's an amazing thing to realize the similar

story which I have told a few times the Zen master who was accused by a 17 year

old girl was pregnant of being the father in a town in Japan and

Aaron's came to him and said she has just told us she's going to have him

she's given birth to this baby and she's just confessed to her that you are the

father when she came to see you in nine months ago it happened she had obsession

with you and you and all over the town they gossip started and they all said

how dreadful he could have done such a thing but when they came to him the

parents and told him about it all he said was is that so in Japanese I don't

know what the Japanese it it may be something like a song or something so

the parents come and say here you you know we don't want this baby it's your

baby you look after it first they say you are the father and he didn't deny it

he said oh and then they said here do you have the baby you look after it we

don't want it he said so and then they left and he started looking after the

baby feeding it buying food nobody came to see him anymore because he had lost

his reputation but because he didn't live through a conceptualized sense of

self or that matter to him was what this moment required this moment there was

this baby so he was feeling the baby without the conceptualized sense of self

the drama was in all the other people they talked about it for months in

months the drama was not in him there was only

this moment and he cares for the baby a year later the girl confessed that the

master wasn't the father but the boy next door so the parents came running to

the Zen master and said because she's just told us that you are not the father

and he said ah

and sulk we are terribly sorry we made a mistake and can we have the baby back

now please we want the baby now is that so okay it is that situation which is a

potentially a dreadful thing for the Zen master we charge into good only good the

baby was brought up in the first year of his or her life by a Zen master that's a

good start in life and this is the story symbolizes the state of nun it's an

extreme version of non-resistance - what is it didn't have to be literally like

that you could say he could have said no I'm not the father but if you believe

that I'm your father what can I do could say that also this

is an extreme form of being aligned totally with now never resisting and the

good that comes out of a seemingly bad event through alignment inner alignment

with it so it describes the state of not resisting the instance of now Jesus even

has an even more extreme example and again it's own it's a symbol it's still

charging the other cheek means simply complete non reaction it's not

necessarily you don't have to take it literally it's in a normal reaction in a

non reaction because usually somebody hitting you on the cheek would

immediately produce a strong reaction so he's not giving any prescription for

Journal conduct it's pointing to an inner state of being aligned

non-reaction so that's and all evil turns into good through that the

situation turns around you have to try it out in your life but one could say

that is only a byproduct of something deeper the facts that the external

situation also turns around is a byproduct of something deeper at the

deepest level what matters is the inner the arising of that depth at

spaciousness within yourself to know that through non-resistance and then

there's the event yes and yet the allowing the space that comes when you

allow and so you become free of depending on content of your life as a

byproduct of that a little irony of the universe when internally you become free

of the content of your life needing to be in one per a particular way to

satisfy you you become free of that need for your life situation to be in a

particular way to satisfy you which most people have that great need you become

free of that because knowing the the depths of space consciousness is the

most satisfying of all that is the only satisfying state so then the need for

content to be in a particular way isn't there

irony of the universe is such that when you don't need for the content to be

alive to be in a particular way it turns into the tendency is for content to turn

into good not without limitations ever but it becomes harmonious because you

are aligned with the totality so a harmonious flow comes into your life

which often means it also improves the content as a by-product precisely at the

point when you don't need it anymore it's a desperate inner need

so people have demands they demand that the world should make them happy it

doesn't it's not in the nature of the world to make you happy you can try for

a while one could say the world is here to make you conscious not to make you

happy and then when you're conscious happiness is there or something deeper

than happiness this thing a joy it has a depth to it that is deeper than

happiness happy unhappy happy unhappy something deeper is there so not to see

the ultimate non satisfactory nature of content when you see that it gets better

because you don't need it anymore so strange and many people realize in their

own lives when they let go of a demand that this or that should be in a

particular way or should happen the moment you completely let go of this

inner search it happens so only Jesus said only be

concerned with the kingdom of heaven which means kingdom of heaven is a

strange description he uses to describe the transformed state of consciousness

he has other descriptions for it the pearl of great price and all kinds of

parables pointing to it he's talking of only be concerned with finding the

essence of who you are then everything else comes and he I believe he said all

the things that you thought you need it will be added unto you because you no

longer need them and of course those things they won't stay around forever

either nothing does they still have certain limitations which are the

limitations inherent in every form but it's nice when you certain things come a

while nice and then perhaps goes again something else comes

it forms arise upon die

and you are beyond that so you leave here chains of content save space and on

the deepest level it's true to say that you never really go anywhere

and so phenomenal existence the world of form the world of phenomena continuous

in your life in this place the space that you are different configurations

forms your life situation make up your life situation you may have certain

problems in your life your life situation

the more you access the space of now the more quickly problematic situations

become resolved not by lying awake for hours on end and thinking about them

they don't become resolved in fact they don't become resolved through thought

thought maybe a final form that your realization takes of what the answer is

sometimes but problems do not become resolved through thought they were

actually created by thought in the first place so it's only by going beyond

thought that the problem suddenly disappears it may not even become

resolved it disappears from your field of vision it may reveal itself to be

only a mind form people carry problems around many people that have no

existence whatsoever except as a thought form for example fear of certain things

that may happen to me he may leave me she may leave me what if this could

happen and this can develop as it as if it were an actual situation and and you

look more deeply you see we pointed at this briefly already when you look more

deeply you see that the entire existence of the level of human problems

our only thought forms not reality only a challenge can be there in the reality

what are the problems in people's lives physical relationship financial

finding life purpose

or fashion work problems

and ultimately all of them thought-forms

relationship problem let's talk about our relationship problems maybe we can

work it out yes up to a limited point a little bit of talking may be helpful

like pain bodies but unless presence arises in the relationship you can't

work it out it's only the arising of space consciousness of presence in the

relationship that it can deepen and it can go beyond problems and the need for

problems and as you know that begins with listening to your partner when he

or she speaks the art of true listening

listening

in the field of the where presence

not exclusively focusing on the content when you listen the words because then

your vision becomes immediately content-based thought you listen to the

words and then your your face goes what do you mean what do you mean by that

what do you what do you and immediately the reactive thought forms come up no

let's do pletely I'm true I never say that

why do you almost accuse me of that yes you always do

no it's not true I don't know it took there's no listening

there's just to mind forms so there's and so not exclusively focusing on the

form because in do listening you are there as space you're not there as form

it's only you can only truly listen if you are there as space the space in

which these words appear and you allow them to appear

it's again of course connected with allowing what is to be completely so you

listen to another person you are this place in which these words happen and as

you listen you listen not in the reactor as a reactive entity but as receptive

space and that is the arising of presence unconditioned consciousness in

the relationship

and the words if words come are very different if finally you do say

something those words are very different from words that arise out the out of the

reactivity of the mind so to be able to be with each other beyond the movement

of thought and not try to solve the so-called problems of the relationship

only on the level of thought the same applies with not just partner

relationships relationships with children space give the child space be

there as place as spacious presence for the child but if you are totally

identified with a thought form which is father mother and you're totally

identified with the role which is a thought form a conditioned thought form

then you interact with the child only through the role of mother or father and

how this role identity thinks a father or mother should behave to be a good

father or mother and the way they should behave is to tell them what's best for

you because I'm I must be I'm a good father I'm responsible do this don't do

that

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