- Good evening, and welcome to Vanguard:
  Conversations with Women of Color in STEM,
  or #VanguardSTEM, for short.
  I'm your host, Dr. Jedidah  Isler, and I am so excited.
  I know because you see me once a month
  and I'm excited every month,
  that it seems like I'm always excited,
  and part of that is true, but also,
  I'm excited in a  different way every month,
  and so, I'm excited about  talking about mental health
  and how we are minding our mental health,
  but let me tell you a  little bit about myself
  just in case you haven't met me yet.
  I am an astrophysicist by training,
  and the founder of #VanguardSTEM,
  the show that you are currently watching.
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  in understanding supermassive  hyperactive black holes
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  It's really kind of awesome.
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  Really, really happy, though,
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  in centering and highlighting the stories,
  and experiences, and expertise  of women of color in STEM,
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  and actually have a conversation with us,
  please do feel free to use that button.
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  So we expect a bunch  of questions from you,
  so please start thinking about those,
  or talking about minding  our mental health.
  So where did that come from?
  Well, every season, we like  to have at least one show
  that's super practical.
  Something that you can activate,
  that you can go and do that  will make your experience better
  no matter where you are on your journey.
  Whether that's starting college,
  in college, graduate school,  after graduate school,
  professional life, any  place in your journey,
  we wanna bring you practical tips
  to help you do that better.
  This month, May, is Mental  Health Awareness Month,
  and so we figured we'd take a moment out
  to talk about how you can  mind your mental health,
  because as you've seen in  some of our social media,
  no matter where you are  on your STEM journey,
  that matters.
  Your mental health matters,  and we also recognize
  that being a woman of color in STEM
  means that there are  different experiences you have
  that impacts your ability
  to maintain good mental health practices,
  depending on where you  sit in your intersectional
  and/or unfortunately,  marginalized identity.
  So we can't wait to dig into these topics
  to talk to two women of color,
  mental health STEM practitioners.
  I was fangirling on them  before the show started
  because I'm so excited that they're here.
  They both have such a breadth  and width of knowledge
  that is going to really, I think,
  change the way we think  about mental health,
  so my hope is that you leave  with some actionable items
  that you can do to help care for yourself
  and your mental health.
  So, let me, without further  ado, introduce our panelists.
  Our first panelist is Dr. Ama Arthur Rowe.
  Dr. Rowe is a proud  graduate of Spelman College,
  with a BA in Psychology,  and Meharry Medical College,
  with her Doctor of Medicine.
  She was Chief Resident of Psychiatry
  at Virginia Commonwealth  University Medical Center,
  and remained to complete her fellowship
  in Psychosomatic Medicine.
  Dr. Rowe is a local.
  We're actually sitting in  the same city. (chuckles)
  Local who joined the faculty
  of Vanderbilt University  Medical Center in 2011
  as an Assistant Professor  of Clinical Psychiatry,
  holding positions with  the Adult Psychiatry
  Consultation Service, the Osher Center
  for Integrative Medicine,  and the Student Psychological
  and Counseling Center.
  We're really glad to hear that.
  She currently serves  as the Medical Director
  of Complex Behavioral Services,
  where she provides  biopsychosocial assessments.
  I practiced that word several times.
  Develops and revises behavioral
  and comprehensive care plans,
  and strengthens communications  between patients, families,
  and medical teams, while  also studying its impact
  on healthcare systems and  sharing emerging knowledge
  with medical trainees.
  It is an honor to have you,  thank you for joining us,
  Dr. Rowe.
  - Honored to be here, thank you.
  - Second in our passel of awesome
  is Dr. Silvia Mazzula.
  She's a Counseling Psychologist  with extensive research,
  clinical and consulting experience
  on issues of diversity,  equity, and inclusion,
  and mental health, with a strong interest
  in Latinx population across the lifespan.
  With epidemiological data,  another word I practiced,
  she examined cultural factors
  that reduced the negative impact
  of maternal criminal justice involvement
  among African American and Latina women,
  mental health service by  Spanish-dominant Latinx youth,
  with substance abuse or dependence
  and cultural and environmental factors
  that impact mental health outcomes
  of racial minority children  exposed to mass trauma.
  Based on community and  college student samples,
  she has studied the impact of racism,
  discrimination, and other  social justice issues,
  including racial profiling.
  On psychological outcomes  of racial ethnic minorities,
  and the role the cultural  ethnic group membership,
  and cultural values  play in shaping racial,
  ethnic minority worldviews.
  Do y'all hear me when I  say, we have the best ever.
  Please welcome to the stage, Dr. Mazzula.
  Hi, welcome to the show, Dr. Mazzula.
  Uh-oh, I can't hear you.
  I cannot hear you.
  So let's just try that again,  give you a second to recenter.
  In the meantime, what I'm gonna do
  is I'm gonna introduce our topic.
  We'll make sure we get your  sound working just right,
  all right?
  Okay, so I'm gonna let Lana handle that.
  So as you heard me say,  one of the main reasons
  we wanted to have this show with you two
  in particular, is because  mental health matters
  in our experiences as  women of color in STEM,
  informs the balance between  taking care of oneself,
  what's necessary to take care  of oneself, and the like.
  So the question is why  talk about mental health?
  So just two pieces of data and Ama,
  I'm gonna throw to you first
  to give us some insight on this.
  According to a recent Teen Vogue,
  shout-out to Teen Vogue for  the work they've been doing,
  real journalism, real talk.
  They did an article, Brittney McNamara,
  in the article that said the  World Health Organization
  reports that between 2005 and 2015,
  the number of people  living with depression
  increased 18%, jumping to  300 million people globally,
  making it the biggest cause  of illness and disability
  across the globe.
  Does that sound like something  you'd run into in your work?
  - Absolutely, so, what I do  with psychosomatic medicine
  is I look at the intersection  between medical illness
  and psychiatric illness, and oftentimes,
  people like to separate the two,
  like they're two separate things,
  but when you're not feeling  well, you're unwell.
  It doesn't matter if it's  a toe that's hurting,
  your heart that's literally hurting,
  or if it's figuratively hurting.
  It's causing you a level of pain
  that is impairing your  ability to function.
  And so I think people are realizing now
  how depression, in particular,
  can impact your ability to care
  for chronic medical conditions,
  so diabetes, hypertension, hypolipidemia,
  so if you have high cholesterol,
  it makes it more difficult for you
  to have the get up and go to  want to treat your asthma,
  to want to take that lap around the block,
  to help your weight and your energy,
  when you're feeling down from depression,
  and any other way as well.
  When you are dealing with so many things
  in your day to day life,  and then you add to that,
  a chronic medical condition,  then it can make you feel
  as if you have the weight of  the world on your shoulder,
  and so it can cause  significant impairment,
  it can cause significant disabilities,
  an inability for you to go to work
  and to live the life in many ways
  that you want to live, and  since people don't realize that,
  or don't feel as comfortable  talking about their mood
  or their anxiety as they  would speaking about a cough
  that they can't get rid  of, or a pain in their leg
  that they're having, it goes untreated,
  it goes unnoticed, and it  becomes more and more disabling,
  and it has more and more of an impairment.
  - I am so glad you backed  up and talked to us
  about this, the connection between somatic
  and psychological because  that is definitely something
  that's the case.
  And so, we'll definitely  want to hear more about that
  from you.
  Let me just also add in this  extra piece of information
  then I would love to hear  about your thoughts, Silvia.
  So in an article in  Science by Elisabeth Pain
  earlier this month, specifically,
  zooming into student, PhD  students and graduate students,
  they said that in a recent study,
  they found that a third of PhD students
  were at risk for developing  psychiatric disorders
  like depression.
  What they said was the most  commonly reported symptoms,
  going back to what you were saying, Ama,
  included feeling under constant strain,
  being unhappy and depressed, losing sleep
  because of worry, not being  able to overcome difficult,
  doesn't enjoy day to day activity,
  and that the greatest predictor
  for experiencing mental health challenges
  was having difficulty  taking care of family needs
  due to conflicting work  commitments, right?
  And that high job demands  and low job control
  also contributed to these symptoms,
  so, Silvia, you were talking about,
  talking about ethnic,  racial, sort of experiences
  with trauma, how does this  play with the work you do?
  Uh-oh.
  I cannot.
  Why don't we have, no, I see
  where you've got your mute button on,
  so why don't we have you  take your headphones off
  and see if we can just hear you natively?
  No.
  We can't, I'm gonna pull you down
  and I'm gonna have them work on your tech
  for just a second, and I'm gonna ask Ama,
  because I saw her nodding her head,
  to give me a few notes.
  So what are you thinking about that, Ama?
  - I think that women, in particular,
  have a role or a responsibility,
  or feel that they have  a role or responsibility
  to care for others.
  So they may be caring up  and caring for parents,
  grandparents, aunts,  uncles who raised them,
  that they feel responsibility  for caring for.
  They may have to care down for children,
  nieces and nephews, others  that depend on them,
  now that they are the one who may have,
  quote-unquote, made it.
  They're also caring  laterally for their partners
  and those that they're  in a relationship with,
  or hope to be in a relationship with,
  and so it could become very easy
  to put everyone else's  needs before your own,
  and even when you plug in then work
  in that level of responsibility,
  you may be dealing with things
  that others around you are not,
  and you're finding a way to kinda juggle
  and keep all of those balls up in the air,
  and at times, it is a very  unrealistic expectation
  that is being placed on  you, and/or we're placing
  on ourselves, and so  when you start to lose
  that pleasure in life,  that is one of the signs
  and symptoms of depression.
  You mentioned sleep, so one of the things
  that we kind of look into,
  we wanna know about sleep changes.
  We wanna know about your interest levels,
  so if beforehand, you  used to love to run home
  and watch your reality  TV, and now you don't care
  what's happening with any of that,
  that could be a flag that  something is changing.
  If you're feeling more down or guilty,
  well, gosh, I haven't read as many pages
  as I should've read today  or I haven't written
  as many as I have, as if I should have,
  then you're again, you're  putting additional weight
  and burden on yourself.
  Your energy level can be affected.
  Your concentration can also go down,
  so it's harder for you  to even pay attention
  at work or at school.
  You could also feel as if  you're not moving as fast
  as you used to, and just overall,
  feeling down, sluggish,  and not like your normal
  or usual self, and so  when that is happening,
  it can be hard to recognize,  and if you do recognize,
  it can also be hard to sort of reach out
  at that time as well.
  - Yeah, there are so many  things you said there
  that are worth responding to.
  I, in particular, am super interested
  in the different  directions of care, right?
  You said down, lateral, and ahead of you,
  and how many of us have  those kinds of constraints
  on ourselves and are  responsible for managing them,
  which is why I thought  it was so interesting
  and why I brought up the  point that they mention,
  that the feeling of lack of control,
  lack of ability to deal with those things,
  is a major factor, right?
  And it reminds me a lot of feeling
  like we can't explain very clearly
  to our down, lateral, and ahead of us,
  sort of, just even what we're doing,
  so that one, for me,  was really interesting,
  so let me just ask you because you said
  that there was basically a decline
  that one might feel as they're feeling
  all these anxieties and pressures,
  how do you know when it's a good time
  to potentially seek mental health service?
  - And so, people usually  focus on the extreme periods,
  so if you're ever at the point
  to where you're not sure  if life is worth living,
  if you feel as if it would be better,
  hey, if I went to sleep  and didn't wake up,
  I would be okay with  that, or if your thoughts
  about self-harm have gone beyond that,
  then you definitely want to  seek urgent or emergent care.
  But then, it's catching  it at the beginning part
  of it as well.
  I recommend mental  health care for everyone.
  The same way that you go  and you kinda make sure
  or find out what your numbers are,
  how's your blood pressure,  how's your weight,
  how's this, how's that.
  Find out how your mental  health is at that time as well.
  Sort of talk to your provider  about how your sleep,
  about what you're interested in.
  Get feedback from close family or friends
  who could also sort of  notice if there are things
  that are changing, but just internally,
  if you know that you are preparing  for a difficult semester,
  if there's a big project that's coming up,
  if you have board exams or other exams
  that you know are on the horizon,  it can just be a good time
  to kind of establish a relationship
  with a mental health provider,
  so you all get to know one another,
  so if there is a big  change in the horizon,
  you're going through  that change with someone
  who knows you and knows you well.
  And so, I feel as if it's,  every day is a great time,
  and that everyone should have someone
  that they can turn to.
  Family and friends can be great,
  but there's something about  having a neutral person,
  and there's something  about having a professional
  on your side and in your corner,
  who may understand  things in a different way
  than family and friends.
  - That is so good, so good.
  So, reaching back to your point
  about talking, using, thinking  about mental health services
  just like you think of any  other preventative maintenance
  or maintenance care, that is key
  and definitely something that is important
  because what I run into,  and what I've run into
  with colleagues and contemporaries of mine
  is that if you wait until you're at,
  maybe not an extreme,  like emergent situation
  like you were talking about,
  but one in which you are  clearly under duress,
  then it seems like such a weight
  to then try to reach out and find someone,
  to figure out if this person's a good fit,
  to do all the evaluative stuff
  that is necessary, but you  don't really have the energy
  to do because you're  going through a condition,
  so hearing you talk about  finding that early and often,
  I think is a really important factor
  for making sure that you  have the right support
  that you need, sort of  through the whole progression.
  - Absolutely, at times, we recommend,
  if you're starting at a new institution,
  just go to their psychological  or counseling center,
  or student mental health center,
  and find out what they offer.
  If you're moving to a new city,
  that can be one of the things  that you're looking for.
  A new primary care provider.
  Hey, who do you think would be a good fit
  for me in this area as well?
  Just so you have an idea  or have a list of names,
  or it could kind of do a  one-on-one session with them.
  It can sometimes take away that monster
  at the end of the book kind of a thing,
  to where you're so afraid  of being open and honest
  about having difficulties  in this one area,
  but it's one of the things,  if you can get ahead of it,
  and try to face it  directly, on the back end,
  it can be such a rewarding experience.
  - Yeah, absolutely.
  I wanna make sure we circle back to this point
  about how to make it a part  of the suite of services
  that we do to take care of ourselves,
  'cause it is a one that we're  least likely to acknowledge.
  You come to school with a cold,
  it's easy to see you have a cold,
  and it's easy to see, first  of all, stand back, (chuckles)
  also to go home, but it's hard to do that
  when you're talking about  mental health services,
  so I think we've got all our  sound issues taken care of
  with Silvia, so I wanted to go back
  and ask you, Silvia,  what you were thinking.
  First of all, welcome.
  Yes, you sound lovely. (laughs)
  So I wanted to sort of bring you,
  jump right into the conversation.
  So I know you've been hearing all along.
  Are there things that are emerging  that you wanted to jump into?
  Absolutely, absolutely, and  did you have any comment?
  It really resonated with me,
  this study, there's...
  It's where they talked about fully third
  of PhD students are experiencing symptoms,
  psychiatric symptoms like depression,
  and there was another piece  there that they mentioned.
  Let me just go back and find it,
  that something like twice the  recurrent, the occurrence,
  in just other highly  educated functional groups.
  Does that sound like something  y'all have heard before?
  Do you have any ideas  about why that might be?
  Absolutely, absolutely, so now  that I've got you both here,
  let me just back out, zoom  out just a little bit,
  and ask you both about  how you got interested
  in behavioral psychology  and in psychiatry,
  and in psychosomatic symptoms,  and in counseling psychology.
  Tell us about your origin stories.
  We wanna hear how y'all got here.
  - I, sure, I will go first.
  So my origin story, when I was younger,
  I don't know if you  all remember this show,
  Growing Pains, but on that show,
  Alan Thicke was a psychiatrist.
  He had a office in his  house, and his kids,
  and they were there, and I just thought
  what he did on that show was wonderful,
  and so when I found  out what it was called,
  back when I was growing up, we had a thing
  called the yellow pages, so  I went to the yellow pages,
  I looked up psychiatrist,  picked up the phone
  and called one.
  - Back when you were growing up, though?
  Back when you were growing up?
  Okay then.
  - When I was growing up,  when I was growing up,
  we had that, and so, when I did,
  I called, I believe the  nurse picked up the phone,
  and I said, "I wanna be a psychiatrist.
  "Can you tell me what I need  to do to be a psychiatrist?"
  And so, I was about  nine or 10 at the time.
  They put me on hold,  and then they came back,
  and said, the doctor said,
  "You need to go to medical school,"
  and so I said, "All  right, thank you, great."
  And so from then on, that's  what I was set here to do.
  I have, now that I look  back, I cannot believe
  that that has actually led me to the point
  that I am right now, but it  was the ability, I think,
  to see that there are  people who are hurting
  in a myriad of ways, and  wanting to find a way
  to alleviate that pain  and alleviate that hurt,
  and so I think that's  why, for me, it resonated.
  And then going through an deciding on
  consult liaison psychiatry  or psychosomatic medicine,
  in particular, I knew I  had a general interest.
  Unfortunately, when I  was starting my training
  is when they had the Virginia  Tech shooting at that time,
  and then I really kind of  reiterated to me the importance
  of college mental health.
  When I was in college,  I had, I knew people
  who were struggling as well.
  I was a peer counselor, and  so it just sort of reignited
  that passion for me,
  and so when I was at  Virginia Commonwealth,
  and I worked at University of Richmond
  and here at Vanderbilt for a time,
  just really wanting to  work with this population
  because I see the vulnerability,
  I see the isolation, I see the,
  it's not bootstrap that people  are pulling themselves up.
  It's like 20, and they're  doing so many things,
  and the professors who may  be very well-intentioned,
  don't understand and don't get it.
  Other people around may not understand,
  and I see that flicker and  that light in their eyes,
  and I wanna make sure  that it continues to burn.
  So that's sort of what my passion was
  towards psychiatry and  then college mental health,
  and then psychosomatic medicine, again,
  people like to separate the two.
  I just kind of put it  all with total wellness.
  - And Silvia?
  I cannot hear you, but I  think, maybe our audience can.
  Can you all give me some quick feedback?
  Nods if you can hear Silvia.
  I'm not getting nods, so...
  All right, so I'm gonna let them,
  I'm not sure what's happening.
  We're gonna let them fix your sound.
  We'll be right back with you.
  Okay, so, Ama, let me  ask you this question.
  How, so this one has already  come up in our hashtags.
  How do you find a mental  health practitioner?
  - Okay, there are a few good ways.
  One, which I think is an excellent way
  and unfortunately, for many  reasons, it's underutilized.
  It's on personal recommendation,
  but the problem with that is,  it has to be sort of twofold.
  Someone has to recognize
  that they're seeing a  mental health professional,
  that someone has to disclose
  that they're seeing a  mental health professional.
  If that, if the stars  align and that happens,
  then getting a referral from someone
  could be an excellent place to begin.
  Knowing that finances and  copays and those things
  are very important as well.
  Even just calling your insurance company
  and finding out from them  who may be in network,
  is a wonderful place to begin as well,
  so you can just pick up the phone and say,
  "Hey, I'm just trying to find  someone in mental health.
  "Someone who can either  prescribe medications
  "or can talk with me, or do both,
  "or I don't know which one I need.
  "I just need to kind of  get my foot in the door."
  That's a great place.
  If you have a trusted medical  provider that you see.
  If you have a pediatrician  that you know growing up,
  if you have a primary care provider
  that you have a good  relationship with as well,
  they more than likely, again,  have a list of patients
  who have also been out,
  and seeking a mental health professional,
  and they get that feedback, and so,
  they can know you, know  who may be a good fit,
  and then put in that  recommendation towards you.
  There are additional  websites, Psychology Today,
  for example, is a website that has a list
  of different mental health providers.
  You can put in the address,  what you're looking for
  in a provider, gender,  all of those things,
  and then they kind of populate to you,
  a list that you can reach  out and kind of find out
  if that person is a good fit.
  The other option, like BlackDoctor.org.
  You could also look there
  and see if there's a  mental health provider
  that may be someone that  you wanna connect with,
  but don't feel as if you  can't just pick the phone,
  and call and sort of ask  questions of them as well.
  It's a relationship that  you want it to be an open
  and honest relationship for you,
  so if there's a barrier that you think
  that will be in place that may keep you
  from having that open and  honest conversation with them,
  it's okay to say, "I'm  looking for a provider
  "that has these three things,  and if you're not a provider
  "with it, that's fine, I'll  look for someone who is."
  Oh, and if you're a student, again,
  going to your student  mental health facility.
  Oftentimes, teaching hospitals as well
  may have clinics to where  they're able to provide services
  at lower rates, or  neighborhood clinics as well.
  - Thank you for that, 'cause  that was one of the questions
  that I had, right?
  That in many institutions  across the country,
  there are just not enough  mental health providers
  that have diverse, I am  not using it that way.
  Enough mental health providers  that aren't white men
  or white women, right?
  And so, coming into this space,
  and knowing you have an  intersectional identity.
  For me, it's being black and a woman.
  I want someone who can understand that,
  for whom I don't have to explain
  what microaggressions are, or the like,
  so thank you for talking about ways
  to find specific practitioners
  who have, who sort of can see  and understand your identity
  without it being explained.
  We'll make sure to share  all of the resources
  that you've just shared with us,
  so that we know, and  it's also good to know
  that you can just ask about identity
  in terms of the kind of  practitioners you want.
  - Yes, I feel as if a good practitioner
  will understand the  reason why you are asking.
  So, it shouldn't be to where  you are having to mute yourself
  and change yourself around in  order to receive good care.
  That's against, at this  point, you're not (mumbles)
  so it's one of those times and places
  you can go and walk boldly, say,
  "This is what I'm looking for.
  "This is what I need," and find out
  what they can and cannot provide.
  - Listen, I'm just gonna  say what you said again,
  'cause I thought it was fire.
  A good practitioner will  know why you're asking.
  There is such a level of  empowerment and clarity,
  and ownership over one's  care that that requires,
  and so, thank you for saying it.
  - Yeah, yeah.  - It's a thing.
  - [Ama] It's a thing.
  If they take offense with that,
  then you know that's not a good fit.
  And it's okay to look for a good fit.
  - That's, it is okay  to look for a good fit,
  which is something  worth mentioning, right?
  That having, that it's not guaranteed
  that the first person you find
  is going to be your practitioner,
  but that doesn't mean you  shouldn't keep looking.
  - Absolutely, it is a  professional relationship
  that you're looking for, but again,
  it's a relationship, so the same way
  that if you've gone on one date,
  and you said, "Oh god,  that was a terrible date.
  "I'm never gonna go on a date again."
  No, you're gonna say
  that that wasn't the right person for me.
  There's likely someone out there
  that is a better option.
  And so you wanna take  that approach as well.
  You don't want to throw out  the baby with the bathwater.
  You don't want, even though  there are some experiences
  out there that can make you say,
  "I don't know if this is for me,"
  there is also someone out there
  who I believe will be a great fit,
  and there are different  options and different types
  of therapy, and different  types of mental health services
  that you can receive as well, so,
  it's not just like  Frasier laying on a couch.
  That's not the only type.
  If that's what you're looking for, great,
  but if you want something that's more so,
  a group therapy, where  there are other people
  who may be women of color,  or may be graduate students,
  or may be young professionals,
  you can find those groups, of  a shared identity in some way,
  and then you could work off of that,
  or if you are dealing  with particular diagnosis,
  depression, anxiety, other mood disorders,
  you can be in a group with others
  who share that diagnosis,  and who could understand you
  on a very different level as well.
  And so, individual  therapy, couples therapy,
  family therapy can also be helpful
  when people don't understand.
  "Gosh, well, only thing you're  doing is going to school.
  "Why is that so stressful?"
  And you as the graduate student are like,
  (screams) "This is the  most stressful thing
  "I've ever been under!"
  Sometimes having someone in there
  that can sit down and kind  of help family, friends,
  and others understand kind  of what you're going through,
  so they, at times, those  people want to be supportive,
  they just don't know how, and  so having a neutral person
  coming and say, "Hey, this  is what they're experiencing,
  "and this is how you can  be a support to them,"
  has also been beneficial.
  - Yeah, yeah, that's really good.
  That's really good 'cause that,
  you ain't never said but a word with that,
  "You're just a student,  why is it so hard?"
  That is a word, listen.  (Ama laughs)
  So the strong side-eye, like, for?
  - Yeah, yeah.
  - For real.  - Yeah.
  - [Jedidah] And I like the idea
  that there are different  kinds of counseling,
  'cause what I was gonna ask,
  some people do like  virtual counseling, right?
  So where you can get on  like a call like this,
  and instead of having you show  and you do a personal thing,
  so there are just different  flavors of counseling
  that you can do all along.
  - All, there are different  types, different flavors,
  different ways, and in addition,
  if you're sort of viewing it  as a total wellness approach,
  then for you, you might have acupuncture
  as part of your approach.
  You may have yoga as  part of your approach.
  You might have a prayer circle  as part of your approach.
  There are ways that you can  supplement your mental health,
  your mental care, so it  doesn't just have to include
  more formal or standardized treatment.
  If going to (laughs) a particular concert
  gets your juices flowing to  make it through the weeks
  and months and finals  ahead, then you might need
  to get you tickets and go.
  And so, it's that insight  and awareness at times
  that you can gain from  therapy, for example,
  or from mental health treatment,
  that will let you see that  you are worth caring for,
  and at times, putting first.
  I know that's hard for people to accept,
  especially women at times, but it's okay
  to put yourself first.
  - So much good stuff.
  I just wanna quote everything you say.
  I have no new thoughts.
  I just wanna quote everything you say
  'cause on this show, the  whole point of #VanguardSTEM
  is to create a movement  of women of color in STEM
  who are empowered to  advocate for ourselves,
  and that empowerment  happens by being whole
  and healthy in a holistic way,
  and so we've talked before about self-care
  in terms of finding gifts and treats
  for yourself to help balance what you do,
  but what I love about what you just said
  is that those things are ascribable
  to good mental health care.
  - Absolutely.
  - Right, and that while going  and seeing a practitioner
  is often a part of the equation,
  that there is a full spectrum of care
  that one can give oneself,  and that was one of questions
  that I had, so what are things you can do
  to foster good mental  health, and I have to admit
  that I hadn't even thought about the times
  where I go, so for me, it's floating.
  If ya'll haven't tried the  deprivation chambers
  You gotta try it.
  For me, it's floating.  (Ama laughing)
  Have you ever heard of it?
  - (laughing) What, tell me more!
  - So, my life is, can be characterized
  by the term, overstimulated.
  Just like, overstimulated.
  I'm a move so y'all can see me better.
  Sorry, so unprofessional  but I'm gonna do it anyway.
  Okay, so my life is overstimulated,
  and so often, I just need a quiet moment,
  and so I found this isolation chamber,
  where you get into a tank.
  It's full of saltwater, it's  not enough to drown you,
  and it's too much salt for you to sink,
  and you shut it and it's light-dark,
  sound-dark, and you just  float for 90 minutes.
  - Ooh!
  - I get my entire life.
  I'll take you, we live in the same city.
  I will take you with me.
  - So you just exist for that time period.
  That's all you do is just exist?
  - Yes!  - That's it.
  - [Jedidah] All you do is exist.
  - Yeah.
  - I'm telling you, we're gonna  go, we're gonna have a date,
  but it's interesting  because I hadn't thought,
  I thought of it as  self-care, in that like,
  okay, this is something I do for myself,
  but what you just taught me
  was that it's actually mental health care,
  so I love that all of these things
  are a part of the spectrum of care
  we have to do for ourselves.
  - Absolutely, absolutely,
  'cause one of the hallmark  symptoms, they say,
  of depression is anhedonia,  which is that loss of interest,
  so that then means that you  have to have an interest
  to begin with, and so that is part
  of your mental health  identity wellness care,
  is finding out who you are  and what makes you tick.
  I think that makes me tick as well.
  I haven't tried it yet, but  I think that makes me tick.
  It's so, and knowing that about yourself,
  and then taking the steps  to move towards that.
  And at times, it can feel  as if there are people,
  places, things, forces
  that are pulling you  the opposite direction,
  so I don't wanna minimize the experience
  of someone who may be  struggling with anxiety,
  depression, bipolar  disorders, schizophrenia,
  other mental health or  mental illness concerns.
  It is a, it can be a  struggle, it can be a journey,
  especially when you have  five other struggles
  and journeys that you are  trying to move through as well.
  So, I think it's important  to have those around you
  who could help encourage  you through these times
  and through these moments,  and hopefully help remind you
  that if you're in a  lower moment right now,
  it doesn't always have to  stay or remain this way.
  - That's right, that's  right, and I love this idea
  of even in cases of like, you say,
  sort of clinical diagnosed,  clinical diagnoses,
  that you can still work along the spectrum
  and find the right practitioner for you,
  that those practices, those  steps are all actionable,
  no matter where you are on  the spectrum of mental health.
  So we're going to, we're gonna try again
  to get Dr. Mazzula 'cause  we are super excited
  to have her here, too, so  let's see if we can get her up,
  and hear her, but thank you  so much, Ama, for all of the--
  (Ama mumbles)
  Then great, you're not going anywhere.
  I'm just thanking you.
  (Jedidah and Ama laugh)
  So let's jump into a  conversation with Silvia.
  Hi, Silvia, can you hear me?
  Oh no, Ama, do you hear Silvia?
  - I do not, no.
  - I don't know what is happening,
  but Silvia, I'm telling you this.
  We're gonna keep trying,  and if we can't get you
  on this episode, we are  just gonna have an episode
  with you on it.
  So just so you know,  you're coming back, okay?
  You are coming back here with us,
  so we'll have them keep working  on it just a little bit,
  but I'm just telling you,
  we're gonna have another episode.
  You're gonna be in it, we're  gonna talk about mental health,
  and we'll hear everything you have to say,
  because I want to hear from you.
  So, Lana, I'm gonna hand her back to you.
  Please do try to make that work,
  but y'all are going to get  some Dr. Mazzula in your life,
  okay, just so you know.
  But Ama is holding it down here for us,
  so let me just open the floor up
  to anyone that has any questions.
  If you all have questions,  please do send them our way.
  You can send them through  the hashtag, #VSMindMatters,
  #VanguardSTEM, you can ask in the room
  if you wanna come up and  ask Dr. Rowe a question.
  You can do that, too.
  So feel free if there's  something on your mind
  that we haven't gotten  to and you wanna get to,
  please do ask it.
  I'll give you about 10 seconds here
  to think about the question you have,
  and then I'm gonna ask  some more questions,
  so you go first.
  10 seconds starts now.
  I would sing the song of that show,
  but I don't wanna get myself in trouble,
  so we'll just have to have  our own 10-second (laugh)
  theme song at some point.
  I will tell you, Ama, the question
  that I'm going to roll with  just to get you thinking of
  before we hear from our audience is,
  going back to this question
  about having a mental health  practitioner, provider
  that is your person.
  So once you've found the person
  that is your good fit, to what extent
  does that kind of stuff  need to be disclosed?
  Is that something personal?
  Do you ever need to say anything
  about you getting mental  health service to anyone?
  Your job, your adviser,  any of those people?
  - I think that's a really great question.
  I say that you disclose  as you feel comfortable.
  It is not an expectation.
  You don't have to do it.
  You don't have to feel forced to do it.
  You don't have to change  it from any other part
  of your medical care, your healthcare.
  So if it's standard  practice in your group,
  in your job, in your office to take off
  for an appointment, and just  call it a doctor's appointment,
  it doesn't matter if you're seeing OB/GYN,
  the radiologist, a  psychiatrist, a psychologist,
  or all of them in the same day,
  you can just say you're  taking your appointment
  and that's it.
  If you're a student, there are  actually federal guidelines
  in place to kind of keep what is happening
  with your medical care separate
  from what's happening  with you as a student
  in your education, so  FERPA, is in that purview.
  HIPAA is what you kind of  think about with privacy,
  with your doctor's appointments,
  and so don't feel as if you have to say
  or disclose anything that you  don't feel comfortable saying
  or disclosing.
  It is not a mandatory part of it.
  If you want to say hi, "Hey,  this is what's going on
  "and this is what I'm  getting help for," you can,
  but I will be fully, I'll  be transparent and honest
  and say that not everyone  views mental health care
  the same way as physical care.
  So if you're saying, "Gosh,  what I, I'm coming out
  "of a bout of pneumonia and  I'm having a really hard time
  "with it," someone might  send you a fruit basket.
  You know what I mean?
  They might rally around and  sign a card and drop it off.
  You go up and disclose,
  "Gosh, I'm going through a  really round bout of depression."
  You might hear crickets, and  it's because people don't,
  it's just not, it's not at the forefront.
  People don't feel  comfortable discussing it,
  and so, there's not really, I don't feel
  as if we have a good  language in place, really,
  to help and support people  with that information.
  And so what you're oftentimes trying to do
  is kind of rally the troops, saying,
  build your community  and get them to show up
  the same way you would  if you had pneumonia,
  but at times, some of those troops
  may actually go the other direction
  because it's bringing  up their own diagnoses,
  or symptoms or concerns  that they haven't addressed
  within themselves, or  they just don't know how,
  or the correct language to use,
  and so they choose not  to say anything at all,
  and that in turn can be  an isolating experience.
  And so, I would say  that it's as you see fit
  and as you feel  comfortable, and oftentimes,
  that's something that's actually discussed
  with your mental health provider
  to find out the best way to  discuss this amongst others.
  - Okay, that's really helpful to hear
  because I know that there is often
  some tension there, right?
  And when you're sick people have, they  have at least some sort
  of shared language around that,
  even though many, many people
  have many different experiences
  with mental health or  ill health or whatever,
  for some reason, like you say,
  we have language around it.
  It is socially acceptable to  talk about physical ailments,
  right, and to your point about
  this sort of psychosomatic thing,
  you can sometimes even talk  about the physical manifestation
  of your mental issue more easily
  than you can talk about with  what's causing it, right?
  - Absolutely, absolutely,  it's that underpinning
  and sometimes that part just stays,
  it stays in the dark,  it stays in the dark,
  and so we're trying to shine light on it.
  We know that women in  particular take antidepressants
  on a much higher rate than  their male counterparts.
  We know that people of color
  do not seek mental health services
  at the same rate as  others, and a lot of that
  goes into a stigma that is attached to it,
  and so feeling is, oh god, what  do you have to be sad about?
  You just need to get over it.
  Or why aren't you, there's  nothing for you to worry about.
  You have a roof over your head,
  and food to eat, you're fine.
  Or feeling as if it's secondary
  to some type of spiritual  or moral or ethical feeling
  that you have, that you can  pray these symptoms away,
  or if you just did more, or loved more,
  or were more in some way,  you wouldn't feel the way
  that you're feeling now.
  You could imagine if you're someone who,
  you're already struggling  with trying to balance home,
  and work, and school,  and all of those things,
  and then you're struggling with  a medical condition as well,
  and you're reaching out for support
  and not getting it in return, it can be,
  and I said before, a very  isolating experience,
  and that's what we are working,
  and I am so grateful that  you're having this platform,
  here and now, to work  against that isolation.
  So people know that they're not alone,
  they're not the first person to go through
  this journey alone, that there is light
  at the end of the tunnel,  and it's not a train,
  and to remind everyone that it is possible
  to move from that place  that you may be in now,
  to a better, healthier place,  with some support in place.
  - It, thank you, I am ecstatic
  to hear you give your expertise  to this subject, right?
  Because it is good to  know that someone hears
  and understands  and I'm, in a minute,
  I'm gonna ask about whether  or not you take patients,
  'cause I think by now, there are people
  that wanna know that.  (Ama laughing)
  But we'll get to that,  I'm just priming you.
  But, you mentioned a thing  about actually wanting
  to come back to put something  I have personally experienced,
  and that is when I say that  something is happening,
  I will hear that I'm not alone,
  which is helpful in some ways  to know that I'm not strange
  for feeling these things,  but at the same time,
  I feel a little bit silenced by that
  because is it true that  graduate school, for example,
  was one of the most difficult  experiences of my life,
  and I've been through  some pretty bad ones, yes.
  Is it true that the pressure  of trying to perform
  and do all these things are stressful,
  and it's something that  everyone who walks this space
  encounters, yes.
  But there are also points of inflection
  that happen because of  the body that I occupy
  this space in, and I find it hard
  to reconcile those two things.
  The fact that I am not alone, of course,
  because this is a global  graduate student experience
  when I was in that phase, but also,
  there are literal moments of feeling alone
  because as a black woman doing it,
  I actually just am  alone, so how do you work
  through those kinds  of, sort of, paradoxes?
  - I usually do that by letting the person
  that you're right, and you're right to say
  that you know what, yes,
  I'm going through a difficult experience
  that's difficult for everyone,
  but I'm also going through  a difficult experience
  that's affecting me in a particular way, and allow you
  to have your own experience,  your own emotions,
  your own struggles, and find out the plan
  that works best for you to get through it.
  And so, it is very different to walk
  and live and operate in a space
  where you don't see a  reflection of yourself.
  And if you've never been in an environment
  where you haven't seen a  reflection of yourself,
  it's pretty hard to explain.
  But when you not only are in that space,
  within that environment, but are expected
  to not only survive it,  but to then thrive in it,
  then you, it can feel  insurmountable at times,
  and so I usually recognize the fact
  that you are going through something
  that no one else has gone through before,
  because you are the one  that is going through it.
  However, there have been people
  who have gone through  similar things in the past.
  These are some of the things  that have worked for them.
  Let's find out what now works for you.
  - Right, right, that's good.
  That is good.
  Let me ask you one more  question about research
  'cause I find that sitting  at these intersections
  often means that there is  a dearth of actual, like,
  scholarly research on subjects,
  so are there places that we can go
  to find research about  mental health practices
  for women of color in  STEM, or is it something
  that we're innovating and  that you wanna help us build?
  - That is something that  we will have to build.
  It is, I think it's something  that we will have to build,
  and I think it is such a, it is such,
  I feel that if you're  catching it at that point
  from so many different angles.
  You mentioned intersectionality earlier.
  You are trying to move through a space
  that few have gone through before you,
  and oftentimes, your focus  is also about bringing
  those behind you, and it's so hard
  to also then be in the present
  to take care of yourself,  when you're not 100% sure
  how you're getting to where you're going,
  and you're trying to pull  10 people behind you.
  It's rough and it's tough,  and I don't know right off,
  any resources in place,  particularly for this group.
  That just means we have to create it.
  - Agree, agree, and I  now have you recorded it,
  saying you will help with that.
  (Ama laughs)  Looking forward to it,
  to working with you on that, so.
  - Let's do it.
  - Yes, so what we're gonna do, well,
  let me ask you one more question
  and then what we're gonna do,
  if everybody has a few minutes extra
  is we think we've got Silvia  online and ready to go,
  so the first question  I'm gonna ask you, Ama,
  is do you take patients, and if so,
  in what capacity, and then for the team,
  once you answer that question,
  all of those who are here in our village,
  I'd love it if y'all  can hang on maybe five
  or six minutes extra, so that  we can give Silvia a chance
  to respond to some of  all the incredible stuff
  we've been talking to, but also,
  we're going to have Silvia back on again
  so that she also can give us her insight.
  So Ama, I'm a throw to you,
  and then we're gonna bring Silvia up,
  get her set, and at the end,  I will close her all down,
  but I'd love to hear about
  when we're gonna set up our appointment.
  - (laughs) Well, I will  say, unfortunately,
  currently, the patients that I see
  are those who are admitted to the hospital
  or in the emergency room,  so they are currently
  within the inpatient hospital setting,
  so I don't have a clinic.
  I previously had a clinic,  as you mentioned earlier,
  but I don't have an outpatient clinic,
  now that I have the medical  directorialship,
  so that has sort of taken over  my outpatient clinic time,
  but it is a love and  passion that I will always,
  I will always have, so that's  what I'll say right now.
  However, if and when  that is to change, will be,
  everyone here will be one  of the first ones to know.
  - Perfect, so since we'll  be working together,
  it'll be very easy to tell  people, and we are not mad.
  You continue to slay as Medical Director.
  (Ama laughing)
  That, it's good know that you are now
  in our village, so let's  get Silvia up here.
  First of all, Ama, thank you so much.
  You've been incredible.
  - Thank you for having  me, this was wonderful.
  - Yes, don't go anywhere yet, and...
  Hi Silvia, third time's a charm.
  - Oh my goodness. (chuckles)
  - I hear her, I hear you.  (Silvia laughing)
  - I hear you, too!
  - Thank you, Ama, you've  been holding it down.
  (Ama and Silvia laughing)
  Wow, so much great stuff.
  I don't even know how to respond,
  so you ask, I don't know where you,
  what you want me to  talk about or speak to.
  - Anything that's on your mind.
  I want to give you this  sort of five, 10 minutes
  to just go at it, or respond,
  or we can ask you some questions,
  but I just wanted to give you space,
  but also let you know you're coming back,
  so you don't have to get it all in.
  - Okay.
  I'm not sure.
  - Let's start, let's start with,
  let's start with sort of your perspective
  on the specific space  that we as women of color
  in STEM occupy.
  Some of your work deals with trauma,
  deals with sort of identity,  and something Ama said earlier,
  which I thought was really great was,
  is when you ask your  practitioner about identity,
  and they have a bad result,
  then that's not your practitioner,
  but I wonder if you could sort of say more
  about how you localized yourself
  in the particular set of  academic interest you have.
  - So, I wasn't as clear as Dr. Rowe,
  in knowing what I wanted  to do when I grew up.
  So I come from a first,
  I'm a first generation college student.
  I didn't know about college  until I was already a junior
  in high school or something like that.
  So I didn't have a clear picture
  of what I wanted to do.
  I knew that I wanted to help people.
  And I went into biology  with a minor in psychology,
  and then after spending a  summer in medical school,
  playing with cadavers, I  realized it wasn't for me.
  (laughs) So I went into psychology,
  and I've done a lot of clinical work,
  but one of the things  that made me go into a PhD
  was realizing that a lot of the things
  that my clients were  coming to therapy with,
  the books just weren't answering.
  There was no research,  there was no articles
  on how to really address  some of the nuanced things
  that some of the clients  were speaking about.
  And so I continued to do clinical work,
  but most of my work now
  is talking about culture of competencies,
  and getting more women into these careers,
  because we are really  missing in these spaces.
  - Yeah.
  - Yeah.
  And that's the thing, and  I, I did fangirl on you both
  when you got here and that's  part of the reason why, right?
  Because what I hear and what I wanted
  when I was in graduate school, and still,
  in terms of keeping my  mental health practice up,
  I wanted someone who I felt understood me,
  and not necessarily because we had exactly
  the same experience, 'cause  as you both said, right?
  Ama, you started sort of early
  and you wanted to do by seeing this show.
  Silvia, you were, as  you went, you realized
  that maybe the cadavers  weren't your thing.
  I'm with you, that's why  I went physical science,
  'cause I don't need any  blood of any sort ever,
  but that we have different experiences,
  but that having someone  where you can start with
  at least some cultural touchpoints  makes all the difference.
  It sort of helps you get to,
  get to the meat of it sort of faster.
  So Silvia, let me ask  you about how you feel
  about using mental health services
  to deal with these systemic crises, right?
  How do you use this actual  time with a practitioner
  to handle things that  are much bigger than you,
  and then I've got a  question from our audience
  which I'll get to right after you're done.
  - So I think the most important thing
  for anyone to know is that  it's okay to talk about it.
  Because a lot of times, especially  when we experience things
  that are more subtle,  like microaggressions,
  you're left thinking,  am I making things up,
  or if you say, if you talk  about your experiences
  with people that don't get it,
  then the response may be  something along the lines of,
  you're pulling the race card,
  or you're, it's all in your  head, or just suck it up.
  So bringing it up in  therapy or in counseling,
  or in, is just validating, it's validating
  to know that this is not,  it's not in your head.
  This is reality, it happens all the time,
  and experiences of  racism and discrimination
  raised to the level of trauma.
  I mean, we have research to show that.
  - Yeah, I think one of the  things you both hit on today
  is this idea that it's  okay to talk about it,
  that it's your choice, right?
  You don't have to talk about it,
  but that it is okay, 'cause you're right.
  When these things  happen, you wonder, wait,
  did I just imagine that?
  Did that really happen?
  That is definitely something that happens.
  So let me ask a question  from the audiences,
  from Chrystelle, she wants to know,
  how do you respond to people who tell you
  to pray through your mental health issues?
  - Well, for me, I think it's important
  to talk through mental health problems,
  and to have someone that  you can bounce ideas with,
  or someone that can reflect  what you're going through,
  so I think praying and  religion and spirituality
  is really helpful, but a lot of times,
  you need an outside person  to also help guide you
  through that process.
  - Yeah.  - Yeah.
  - [Ama] I would agree with that.
  I sort of view faith as  a practical expression,
  and so, what you want is for them
  to realize that prayer  can be a part of it,
  and you could say, "You know what, thanks,
  "I appreciate that," if you feel
  as if that's an appropriate response,
  but the same way that they  wouldn't expect for you
  to pray only through a heart attack
  and not go to the emergency room,
  or pray through any other major condition,
  this is the same, so, I  think teasing out the two,
  especially in our community, is,
  it is an uphill battle  because that is sometimes
  what the response is, but  you don't tell someone,
  "Hey, pray through your diabetes.
  "Don't take your insulin.
  "I wish you the best."
  With that, it's understood  that you take your medications
  and we want you to get better,
  and you exercise and eat  and do this and do that,
  as part of a big picture  towards your health.
  And so I try to say that  definitely prayer can be a part
  of it, but let's add  some practical expression
  of the word of God in there as well,
  and move forward with that.
  - I like that, I like  that, and it's really,
  it's really, really key that  both of you touched on it.
  It's not a dismissal of  faith or faith practice,
  or deep-seated spiritual,  sort of grounding,
  but that is also not the way,  that is not the only way,
  and it shouldn't be the exclusive way
  with which we handle these situations.
  I really love this notion, and Silvia,
  I'd love to hear you weigh in here.
  I love this notion that Ama brought up
  about sort of this spectrum  of mental health practice,
  and you sort of talked  about it at first, too,
  when I could hear you  and no one else could,
  so let's go back to that point,
  when you were saying that there are things
  that just practices and ways  of being and understanding
  from, all the way from  floating, in my case,
  all the way to seeing a  mental health professional,
  that there's a spectrum  of mental health care.
  What are your thoughts about other ways
  that one can take care  of their mental health?
  Mind their mental health.
  - There's a lot of things  that people can do,
  and I wanted to just kind of piggyback
  on what Dr. Rowe said before  about how one of the signs
  of, for example, depression is anhedonia,
  or losing interest in some activities,
  but you really need to know  what you're interested in
  in the first place, so I think part of,
  a practical thing to  maintain mental health
  is really finding something  that you're interested in.
  Whether it's listening to music
  or just being alone, or reading,
  or walking, or whatever it is,
  really finding something  that makes you feel good
  during a stressful day, and doing that
  on a regular basis, like  literally scheduling
  into your calendar.
  On Fridays, from one to  two, walk, mental health.
  Speaking to other people,  having friends with people
  that get it is very important.
  And having different support networks
  that help with different things.
  So a support network that helps  with going through school,
  going through a job, going  through relationship issues,
  whatever the case may be,  because not every friend
  or colleague can help.
  Venting sessions with everything  that you're going through,
  right, so having different  support systems in place
  for yourself.
  - Right, now that's really  good, that's really good.
  So let me ask you both this
  'cause we're gonna have to sign off
  in just a second.
  I'd like for each of you to sort of,
  given what we've talked about,
  given your extensive  experience and expertise,
  what is the one thing you want  our audience to leave with?
  If there is anything that  you want them to remember
  among the many, many awesome  things that you've given us,
  what is the one thing you  want them to take with you?
  Take with them.
  Dr. Mazzula, we'll start with you.
  - Okay, I think that the, if anything,
  is that there is no shame in  admitting that we all struggle.
  Every single one of us struggles.
  Whether you're a student, a professor,
  a researcher, a psychologist,  everyone needs someone
  to help them maintain their mental health.
  And if someone, and if you  can't find that person,
  there are resources to  help find psychologists
  or counselors, but that  it's okay, it's okay.
  There's no, I mean we have a lot of stigma
  around mental health, but it's important
  to take care of ourselves,  especially in these spaces
  when we're so isolated  and alone to begin with.
  - Dr. Rowe, last word from you.
  - I agree with that, and it would be
  to pursue your total  wellness and wellbeing,
  so your physical health,  your emotional health,
  you spiritual health, and to pursue that
  and it's okay to acknowledge the fact
  that one or more of those areas
  may not be where you want  them to be right now,
  and to seek help until you get them
  the way that you want them to be,
  and have the life that you wanna live.
  I believe should have the  lives that they want to live,
  and even if the life before you
  has not been what you  have wanted it to be,
  because of things out of your control,
  we can help you take  control now and move forward
  in a different direction.
  So hope, I guess.
  - Yes, yes, yes, yes!
  Life, given from both of you, and I like,
  as you were both talking, I just realized
  that we're definitely  have to have you back,
  Dr. Mazzula, but we also  have to have you back,
  Dr. Rowe, because y'all need to talk,
  so we can talk together.
  We got research papers to write.
  - Oh yes, those are missing  especially in mental health.
  - Exactly, exactly, I  think that there is a way
  that we're going to have to turn this
  into actual tools and things  people can hold on to.
  So there are some articles  coming out on #VanguardSTEM
  that we're gonna do that with,  but I'd love to be in touch
  with both of you about putting,
  writing our stories into  the scholarly record.
  That our experiences matter,  that they're important,
  and that it's okay for  us to talk about them,
  so I'd love to invite you  both back to the show,
  to invite you both to participate
  in creating a language around this work,
  so what we're gonna do
  is I'm gonna give you a  few little closing thoughts
  so that you hear them before we go,
  and then if we have any more time,
  we'll continue the conversation,
  but let me just say it has been my honor
  to host you both, and to hear such wisdom
  and insight, and expertise, right?
  Because as you say, it's  great to have people
  that know generally about these things,
  but to be able to talk to you two
  have put in time and  effort and dedication,
  and gotten the credentials  and understand the system,
  to help us through it,  to give us language,
  to give us voice.
  Those things are critical  and I, number one,
  am thankful, and I saw some  nodding heads down there,
  who are also thankful, so thank  you for being here for us,
  and giving us actionable wisdom
  that we can apply going forward.
  We'll be building language  around this together.
  Let me also say thank you  to the #VanguardSTEM team.
  We call ourselves, small but mighty,
  'cause indeed we are.
  These are the women that help  make this whole thing happen.
  Natasha Berryman, Lana  Hunter, Chrystelle Vilfranc,
  Leolene Carrington, y'all hold it down.
  Everything magical you  see from #VanguardSTEM
  is because of these women, and  we are very, very thankful.
  So thank you y'all for holding it down,
  especially while I was gone last week,
  and if you saw this episode  today and you loved it,
  share it with your friend.
  We'll have the video up shortly.
  As I said, we'll have a take two,
  because we can all agree  that there's more for us
  to talk about, but in the meantime,
  the show will be up  soon, so you can share it
  with your friends.
  We'll definitely be tweeting that out.
  It'll be on all our social media.
  We'll share it with  Doctors Rowe and Mazzula,
  so that everyone will have access to it.
  We hope you enjoyed tonight's show.
  We had one of our #VanguardSTEM  villagers write for us
  this month, so there will  be an article coming out
  by Dr. Nicole Cabrera Salazar,
  talking about her mental health experience
  and sort of continuing to  demystify her experience
  as a Latina going through a PhD program
  and using mental health service,
  so we're really trying  to build up a language
  and a sort of, a written  legacy of this work,
  so don't miss her article.
  We'll be sure to share that, too.
  She'll be deep diving into  how her experience looked.
  We'll also be offering  a bunch of resources
  and we'll touch base with  our awesome panelists.
  They'll give us some more information.
  We'll be sending out the articles
  that we reference on the show.
  The last show of our season is next month,
  June 6, 7 pm Eastern, don't miss it.
  It's gonna be special.
  We'll tell you what the theme is later
  but mark your calendar now,  June 6, 7 pm Eastern time.
  That's gonna be this show.
  If you want to be on the team  that makes this all happen,
  you can email us at hello@vanguardstem,
  or mention us on any of the social medias
  we up in here, so just hit  us up some kind of way.
  Let us know.
  We're especially looking for people
  that can do video or  copy-editing and production,
  so those are the kinds of folks  we're looking for right now.
  Join the conversation on Facebook,
  on Twitter, on Instagram.
  We are also on Snapchat,  but you know how that goes,
  and if you wanna be featured
  at the Women-Crush Wednesday in STEM,
  we can all agree that we have  two Women-Crush Wednesdays
  in STEM on this show tonight.
  If you wanna be one, just  hit up bit.ly/VSWCWinSTEM
  to send your nomination in.
  It's my pleasure to host  this incredible show
  with Dr. Ama Arthur Rowe  and Dr. Silvia Mazzula.
  - Thank you.
  - I will see you both very soon.
  Good night, everyone.
  - Night.
  - Good night.
     
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